here i am!

I've been around...it's just that each time I wanted to start a post, I realized that nothing had changed this cycle. Like all other months before: half of the month I'm grieving, half of the month I'm hopeful. Then I started to think: What if my posts a year from now are the same as my posts today?

Writing used to make me feel better, but lately, it's been making me feel like crap. And the dates of each of my posts are just constant reminders that I might be at this for awhile.

I had originally wanted my posts to be about the lighter side of it all. Lately, it's been getting harder and harder to see that side of it. (And I swear, I used to be such an upbeat person!)